25 weeks ...

Today is our 25 week mark! I am happy to say that we have gotten to this point and are more confident that everything is working out as planned this go around. Our lil' bebe is near 1 1/2 lbs this week. On a website, they compared his length to a musical recorder that you played in elementary school (if that doesn't bring back funny memories)! I feel as if I cannot get any bigger, however, my body is proving me wrong. With the bodily changes occuring, I am starting to have sleeping problems due to not being able to get comfortable. I am constantly tossing and turning all night between my hips and back - all hurting after lying on them for an amount of time. Once again, April assures me that this is only the beginning! :)

Yesterday was a really hard day for me, although I am not so sure why. The last week or so I have had some bouts of sadness and slight depression. I have read that it is all a part of pregnancy and those wonderful hormones circulating throughout. We have about 3 1/2 months to go and it is all starting to hit me like a stone wall. The stress of picking out a name that the child will have forever, decorating the nursery, purchasing nursery furniture, making sure that all the plans for childbirth are in order, and mostly wondering how great of a parent I will be. I know that Jason and I will do the best we can, but it just starts to scare you as that time nears.

It doesn't help that work is overstaffed and I keep getting cancelled and am either forced to take my Paid Time Off hours or go without pay. I am only going to get around 7 weeks of maternity leave as it is, due to being sick so often with morning sickness. This alone has caused a lot of stress, but I think I have finally accepted that the 12 weeks off just isn't going to happen for me. But it is a little disheartening that I may be getting even less than 7 weeks due to overstaffing. I am sure that many people know exactly where I am coming from. I just had so many plans and financial goals before April and now they are all shot.

Anyhow, I took a few pictures at christmas time and will post those at some point. As you can tell, I am not very motivated these days! I am trying to keep up with my blog a little though. It's always nice to go back and read the entries from a previous time!!! I wish everyone the best in the year 2009 and pray that our economy picks up and people are able to live without fear. May all of your New Years resolutions be answered! :)