Haven't posted in awhile....

I just woke up after trying to sleep the day away before heading back to work for day 3 out of 3. I am looking forward to the rest of my weekend - heading to the Royals game with my hubby tomorrow and out of town to Tan Tara for a weekend with the girls from work! Today I am in a good mood with the sun shining and the warm weather outside.

I got some news from a friend that she had a miscarriage. She was 2 weeks farther along than I was - both due around Christmas. I am not sure of the details, I am not ready to experience the specifie news of another bad outcome. I am trying to heal myself; not trying to be a bad friend but I just cannot go thru all of those emotions again.

I have not been sleeping well - more restless sleep than good sleep. I have dreams throughout the night pertaining to our recent situation. I am contemplating seeing a doctor to get on some medication to help me relax and clear my head. Things are great when I am busy and around people, but when I am alone it is extremely hard. I have been staying to myself and spending all of my time off at Jason's side. We have become closer and feel like this has made our marriage stronger - even when I thought that was impossible.

I am hesitant, yet excited about this weekend with the girls. I hate leaving Jason when I hardly get to see him at all. But I think I need to get out and let go. I will be with a great group of girls who will make sure we all have a great time! I will have to post some pictures! I am trying to learn this programs still and would like to eventually add pics and more interesting posts. It is hard to post sometimes because I have a pretty boring life - with some exceptions!!!! :)